Also, I want to talk a bit about awareness ribbons. “Awareness” in general. What good does awareness do? “Yep, I’m aware of this problem, so I’ll stick it on my car, and that will be that.” People are aware of what’s an issue, but they don’t actually do anything about it. I don’t think it’s good enough to be aware of something wrong. I think awareness is a copout. It makes people think they’re doing something wonderful, and they’re so sympathetic and such activists, but really? What are they actually doing to solve the problem? “Wear pink for breast cancer awareness.” Um, I’m pretty sure everyone’s aware of breast cancer. Wearing some color doesn’t do a damn bit of good to people who are actually suffering from breast cancer. It just gives people an opportunity to accesorize.
Get rid of awareness ribbons. They’re incredibly stupid.
I’ve never felt this overwhelmed, alone, helpless in my whole life. I need help, or compassion, or something. College is not working for me right now. I just want things to be simpler. I wish I had time to read, think, write, take long walks, drink tea.
So consider this a cry for help, I don’t know how to balance anything and I feel like I’m in quicksand.
I’m feeling a bit better about tech today. I feel like I’m more on top of things- since I emailed Prof. Martin about the rhetorical analysis, and junk. I still need to work on my homework for Improv and prepare my two intruding characters, but I should be able to do that during breaks. Should being the operative word. I can’t wait for some downtime.
Finally, I’ll be able to see this show in its entirety, rather than just bits and pieces and cue-to-cue work. The girls in this show are great, and so kind. I love actors.